Biggest Loser Diary, Take 2!

I’ve posted emails, and now I thought that I should post the REAL diary we had to keep every day at the ranch. Each and every night we had to sit and write these damn things out. So here ya go!

Week 1

10/23
It sucked. It sucked bad. From challenge to treadmill. No fun.

10/24
I think I just went thru the worst hell I’ve ever been thru. EVER. I worked out for 3.5 hours. Puked once. Wanted to give up a few times. I was also unable to eat dinner cause of being so damn nauseous that even the smell of food was sickening.

10/25
It was a slow ass day. I wish it had gone faster.

10/26
Today was a much better day today. I wish we did not have to do as much production out of the gym time. We did our last chance work out today and it was awesome. I think I will do well in the weigh in. We will see.

10/27/07
The Dr came in and lectured us on how to do stuff right and to take certain stuff in our water…etc. Not a lot of fun, but that led into a workout that Jillian and Bob decided to work with both teams, which was awesome, cause now we get to see Bob as much as Jill. Bob, not as nice and as easy a trainer as I would have thought…he is just as hard as Jill, but does not cuss as much!!

10/28
Morning was great, we did not start till late in the afternoon, cause the trainers let us get some rest to make up for all the late production nights.

I had an anxiety attack right when we started, ended up going outside to catch my breath and had my emotions overtake me. Jillian walked up to me and talked with me and pulled me off where I was sitting and said let’s go work out…I went, she worked my ass off. She keeps saying she thinks I am one of the strongest people here, but don’t have the strongest mind. I agree with the mind part, but I don’t think I’m one of the stronger people.

10/29
I lost 1 less pound than Amanda. Suck. Jill is going to kick my ass in the gym tomorrow because of that!!!!

Week 2

10/30
First day after the elimination; kinda weird vibe around here. Missing Lynn and Jenni, but I think they will do well outside the house.

Jill and Bob worked us out hard. Yay!

10/31
Today was one of the worst days I’ve had since being here. I am SERIOUSLY homesick. All I could think about all day long is my son; he was top of my thoughts when I was walking on the treadmill, when Jillian was yelling at me. I just wanted to see him, to hold him, to TALK to him. I hate how we cannot talk to anyone outside the house.

Aside from missing my son like crazy…worked out hard today. Still sore from the workout and have been icing my back due to it.

11/1
Well we did shitty at the challenge. SHITTY. We did not finish which I think reflects poorly on us, mostly me…cause it was my doing that we did not finish. Amanda was rearing to go, but my left knee lost all its strength, and was occasionally tingling on the drop. We finished close to last. That being said tho, Mark and Jay gave us the only thing I wanted for the last few weeks, just to talk to my son, to know he is okay.

Now I get to do that and can move on with making my body better…stronger…healthier.

11/2
It was a great day, got to call home. That was the best phone call I have ever made in my entire life. Got to talk to my son, and it was the best!!!

11/3
Today was a nice day, it was slow. Bob and Jill worked us out for about 4 hours, but that was nice…it was the shortest day we have had in a long time. I am still on cloud 9 ‘cause I was able to call home last night. Since talking to Aiden last night, all I can think of is “the moon is a circle” (his favorite phrase) I miss him so much, but I know what I’m doing the right thing. I love him more than anything, and I really want to see him grow up and become the man I think he will be.

11/4
We had a nice start to the day today; we walked up the mountain and took some pictures. It was extremely enjoyable, I wish we had more places at home to sight see like they have here.

11/5
The temptation was hard, but not that hard. I never had any inkling that I was going to eat anything, I went in KNOWING I would not eat anything. I poked a Twinkie…but that’s it. It smelled GOOD, but not worth it, that food was the reason I am here in the first place. No need to touch it anymore.

For the record, I am HIGHLY disappointed in Mark for eating food, especially 2 days after telling me he was disappointed in me for how hard I have been working out…hypocrite.

11/6
Today was a good day, not only did I lose 6 pounds, but Mark and I talked and got things worked out. So all is well in the world…well accept for the fact that Mal and Curtis got voted off the show…I will miss them dearly. I can honestly say I was closer to them than anyone…partly because we were roommates, but we also just clicked. I will miss them everyday and hope they do very well on their own. I have faith in the fact that they will…and I told Curtis, next time I see him I better be able to get my arms all the way around him when I give him a hug!!!!

Week 3

11/7/07
Another good day…that’s 1.5 in a row. Lets see how far I can take this. Jillian worked me hard in the workout, but it felt great cause I made it thru.

Wrote my parents a nice letter…beyond that, it was all working out, eating or sleeping.

11/8/07
Was able to sleep in today…which was VERY VERY nice. Had to go right to working out tho because of the morning homework. Once Jill got here we worked out asses off for about 4 hours.

11/9
It was a very nice evening. Just played a game of chess, and chilled. Even took an evening dip in the pool. More days should be this nice.

11/10/2007
Had the challenge today. It was actually fun, except for the fact that we got put out of the challenge pretty quick, second team to get taken out actually. The drama in the house afterwards was strange, VERY negative around here. It sucked.

11/11/07
Today was a slow day…worked out for a few hours. After that, chilled and hung out with everyone. I wish all the days could be like this.

11/12
Today sucked. I hurt just about everywhere below the waist. I thought the pain was supposed to go away after a while…not so much.

11/13/07
Today was a little bit better, found out I have tendenitis in both of my legs…fun. It explains why I had trouble with the last chance workout. The running was kicking my ass yesterday!! Today I was able to do a little less and let my legs take a break…I’m hoping to do it again for another day so I can come back as close to 100% as possible!

11/14
Had a good workout today with Bob…he kept easy on my leg, which was nice. 1 more day to let my leg heal.

11/16/2007
Gone daddy gone…White team’s gone.

We will see where we stand in other people’s eyes. See you all at the finale…THIN!

Thank you Bob and Jillian. We will miss you most. We wish we could have stayed longer.