Obsessed? Maybe A Little.

So while working out with my best friend this morning (we have a 4 day a week workout training in the mornings at the YMCA) … he says, “You are a bit extreme when it comes to working out.”

This leads to a discussion whereas the word obsessed is thrown out (it might have been by me, I’m not sure), but either way, he agreed I may be obsessed with working out. I feel like I have to be obsessed. I am truly worred about the following things:

  1. Becoming another statistic and gaining all my weight back and being obese again. I truly love the way I feel and NEVER want to go back to my “before Biggest Loser” lifestyle/look.
  2. I don’t feel like I’m done with my body yet. It feels like there is so much work left to do. Until I look the way I want to look (if that’s possible) I will keep this up!
  3. I worry that if I don’t look how people envision a former Biggest Loser contestant (example, the Germanakos brothers) I am a fraud. A fraud meaning people look at me and are thinking, “Whys THIS guy trying to tell me to workout, he looks like crap!”
  4. You can lose a 100 pounds, but insecurities follow you forever. No matter how much weight I lose, or how much muscle I put on, I still see myself as “the fat guy”. I can even look at old pictures of myself and still see some of the same physical qualities in myself now.

It’s pretty sad really to think that how can someone lose mass loads of weight in an extremely short amount of time (100lbs in about 8 months) and still feel fat and insecure?

That my friends is the question of the day!